1652; Writing again, with a partner

Bismillah.

Luqman has always told me that he needed to write it down somewhere whenever something happens in our lives or marriage, so today I told him:

"Sayang jom write sama- sama on my blog?!"

Because why not? I needed to catch up on my writing anyway- yall won't believe how many drafts I have just because I didn't have the will to write. Luqman has been THE walking blog I married to. I talk to him all the time, hehe bestest decision ever.  

I listen to him all the time too. And whenever he starts talking about physics or some newly found blackholes, well easy to say I get too comfortable... and unintentionally slept into his enthusiasm. It was fun.

Anyway story time. The last time we went back to Kulai, Luqman talked about how he dreamt about us having a baby boy. It was so real, intense and so happy he said- and I think I cried a little listening to him. So yeah, we're on our TTC phase now- really wanted kids on our own, but also super happy and in love being in each other's company too. Both ways, alhamdulillah. Doakan kami!

I guess that's it for now from me. Hope this is a new motivation to start writing again!

- Faqihah, Cheras.

1651; I Would Love to Come to Your Basketball Practices But...

Bismillah.

Yesterday was the day we ate out after quite awhile- last time was during our honeymoon in Penang. Planned to eat at Naili's Place but then realised it was just another overpriced cafe. 

"I tak pernah makan Marrybrown", he said- and to Marrybrown we go.

Ditched the car and walked quite a distance to Marrybrown, holding hands and taking our own sweet time... while he talks about how he really wanted me to teman him to his basketball practices.

It's not that I didn't want to, I would love to! I just didn't like the idea of being surrounded by a lot of tall guys around me while being the only awkward girl at the corner of the court. But he insisted that it wasn't the reason, so out of geram-ness I cubit his hand, and let off my hand.

He then quickly grabbed my hand again (which then soothed my heart by a lot) and went "alright you don't have to follow me to basketball practices okay. Tapi kalau I ada match datanglah eh."

"Okay yang tu boleh".

//

"Sorryyyy"

"Haha sebab cubit I tadi?"

"Haah... Sorry you kena banyak sabar dengan I."

"Allah, tak memerlukan kesabaran pun."

O' Allah please grant my husband all the goodness in the world and hereafter for he has been such a great husband to me🥺❤

- KL

1650; Ladies and Non-Ladies, The Husband.

Bismillah.

At 5.30am today I was 'forced' to wake up because I heard a loud thump in my head and it was painful at the side of my forehead. Milliseconds after that someone went "sorry, sorry I dreamt about cooking fried chicken..." and I thought to myself "and how does that justify the headbutt?" but couldn't bother asking for any explanations so I went back to sleep coz girl has to hit the next snooze button.

That, ladies and gentlemen, is how my married life went this morning.

Luqman's action-packed-fried-chicken-dream aside, this man is also why I haven't written for so long (I can hear him saying "betul betul I salah lagi" with his very cheeky but redha face). I have always been by his side almost all the time and silently didn't want him to be out of my sight #clingy. Can't help it guys, he brings so much peace and calmness to my heart. Our relationship is nowhere near perfect but I feel like I'm the luckiest to have him to love all my life.

Here's to more car rides, random physics concept and malay vs western food debates together.

1741

KL

1642; To Love Again

Bismillah.

You really are in love already aren't you, Faqihah?

//

O' Allah, you know how hard I love when I'm in love but this time please let no love beats my love for You.

-KL

1649; Wedding Invitations

Bismillah.

"This month, 26th, I will be getting married insyaAllah."

It has been fun, alhamdulillah, inviting people to our virtual akad nikahs in around two weeks ahead /gulp/. Most were shocked by the fact that I sent an invitation out of nowhere, whilst never been seen (on at least social medias) with any guys. Yeah guys... I knew Luqman mid-March, met him first time in April and pandemic happens.

But come to think of it again, I'd unlikely post such things on social media, regardless pandemic or not lol.

Until yesterday, the best reaction I've received so far was from Sarabanon, a whatsapp group I have with my ex-roommates in UiTM. Yana and Piqah went 'WHAATT? FAQIHAH?? KAHWIN????' as if thinking I would never get married haha coz umm maybe... I was always the quiet one among them lol. On a different note, it feels good to talk to this loud happy bunch again.

Wishes and duas have been overwhelming from family and friends, which some had been so meaningful to me. Pie wrote a hell long of an essay and told me to read it 'nanti-nanti'. Of course that 'nanti' ended in just few hours, and I hope he'll never read this. Erna, I couldn't stop re-reading hers because it was so beautiful that I hope every single words she wrote comes true and comes back to her. Zahidah, Noreen and Najwa's made me went back to high school memories in a heartbeat- GPS, usrah, tukang urut... gahhh how time flies. And Shu, yeap definitely still neighbours insyaAllah but maybe not roommates anymore ehe.

I read every single wishes everyone wrote for me and Luqman, and it felt so warm to be showered by such sincere prayers from everyone. Like... you really took time to say these prayers for us? May all the good prayers comes back to every single one of you amin.

Allow me to selit an appreciation post for the one who has provided me the most support since the beginning, ibu and ayah.

It has been pretty hectic for the past few months with work, exam and marriage at the same time but they definitely have made it easier for me for arranging everything back in Johor. I might've been a bride-zilla monthsss earlier if it wasn't for them. May Allah grant ibu and ayah the highest jannah for the care and love they have provided for me since I was little, amin.

Okay, gotta study for my exam. As usual, doakan saya!

- Cheras