1578; Birthday Day 7- Happier (And That's All That Matters)

Bismillah.

These days I feel... freeer. Happier. Felt like a lot of weight is lifted off my shoulders. 

What's important is, the weight is lifted off by constant wise decision making, although sometimes still struggling, intentionally done by my own choice. I don't even know if my words even make sense but yeah, that's what it feels to be in my place now.

I'm loving the free and happy life that I have now. And I don't wish to have it in any other way.

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Sneak peek of how today went (from igstory):

Simply blessed.

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1576; Birthday Day 3- The Biggest Gift

Bismillah. 

I guess my birthday will really be going on forever at this rate :p 

Yesterday during lunch I had few coming to my office claiming they just wanted to 'lepak- lepak' and I absolutely had no idea they were there to celebrate my birthday lool. I mean who would've wondered, it's already 2 days since your birthday! Thanking them for the surprise, pizzas, lava cake, laughters- I feel sooo loved. 

Here's a video of me being all clueless, even when they're already singing the birthday song. In my mind I was like, "who's birthday is it today?", hence the reversing-all-the-way-to-the-back part because I thought I shouldn't be in the spotlight!

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Last night I had ALL of my housemates sitting together in my room to listen to our usrah with kak A. I swear I didn't force them at all haha. Okay maybe I did put some baits in my words like, 

"Saya ada usrah online malam ni. Kalau nak join, jomlah lepak bilik saya. 

Bilik saya ada aircond sejuk k sekarang." 

and they all jokingly went, "fuyooo bangga eh ada aircond sekarang" hahaha!

Oh ya ya, I forgot to mention that I don't have to sleep on the sofa anymore because Ibu belanja-ed me my aircond repair hehe. 

Later that night, we all had a midnight chat in my room and I told them about my big decision after reaching 24 and they were sooo supportive. Honestly I don't even know if this is the right decision after everything I went through but I just thought it's better than sitting around doing nothing. Doakan Faqihah!

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1575; Birthday Day 2

Bismillah. 

Today was just interesting. I had the CEO searching for me at the office because he wanted to personally wish Happy Birthday to me. He also said sorry for not wishing it yesterday because he was so busy with work- I mean... I obviously know he's a very busy man so my heart went awhhhh he really didn't have to do that :( 

And then later after lunch, I was listening to Nadin Amizah's out loud on my earphones when suddenly I saw someone kinda talking to me. It was the deputy CEO so I gotta stop her from talking while lowering the song's volume before she goes further with the conversation. She then said, "Eh I heard it was your birthday yesterday. Happy birthday ya!" tsk tsk thank you!

Also I hope my birthday continues for a month because today I got another surprise birthday cake, this time from H. Ish, apeni rasa disayangi sangat lah harini! The cake was sooo gooood and plus 10 points for the cake because it has nuts ehe. You know what, scrap the a-month birthday thing- I can actually do this forever. 

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All these happiness that I get today, it all came from someone's bloods and tears last 24 years. I wouldn't even be here today if it wasn't for her sacrifice and support.

Idk if ayah even reads this but yeee I love you too ayah! In case you got jealous :p

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1574; 24

Bismillah.

Hey so umm, I just turned 24. Unintentionally slept on the sofa but was woken up at 12am by H and T for a small celebration among us. Of cakes, presents and laughters- just so much love from these girls.

Later today might just be another normal day- waking up early for the office and then by evening, getting tired over the never-ending work... but hey, that's just how time rolls now. Still grateful for everything that He has granted to me. From all the goods and the bads, it has surely shaped me to become who I am now.

If there's a lesson the 23-year-old Faqihah wants the present Faqihah to bring forward is probably to always give yourself a second chance. Nobody might give you the chances so it is always up to you to come back up again with every falls you had. 

Anyway, here's to a year older and hopefully wiser. May the future be filled with much more love and happiness.

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Dan semoga juga Tuhan redha dengan umur-umur kita.

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1564; Ramadhan 30- Kejutan

Bismillah.

30 Ramadhan yang mahu aku ingati selama- lamanya.

Hari aku bertungkus-lumus memasak untuk berbuka puasa keluarga Kent- tapi bila tiba waktu berbuka, orang- orang di atas ini pula yang membawa bermacam- macam makanan untuk kejutan hari lahir aku. Petang itu, sungguhlah aku tertipu dengan lakonan masing- masing yang kononnya tak dapat hadir ke jamuan yang aku rancang. Ish, mujur sayang.

Dan malam itu juga kebetulan malam 1 Syawal. Untuk takbir raya, untuk bunga api, untuk gelak tawa, untuk perasaan disayangi. Terima kasih untuk malam indah ini.

malam 1 syawal 2019, kent.

Kent, hidup kerana mereka- mereka ini.

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1043; From Ibu to Kakak

Bismillah.

My dearest dotter,  

This year is your last teen year. Time flies so fast macam baru semalam we welcomed you to our arms. 

You were conceived 5 months after me and Ayah got married. We wanted to have kids later actually- thought of extending our honeymoon and not prepared to have kids yet. 

But fate had its own special way. 

Carrying you for 9 months in my womb was not easy at first. The first trimester was very challenging. 

The morning sickness was bad. I could not eat. I would stare at the food until the ants eventually came and shared my food. Then I would cry because I wanted to eat but I couldn't. 

Later, the pregnancy was a breeze. Even though my weight balloned and I became a walking giant, I was a happy mom-to-be. 

When the D-day came, you were already a week overdue. Ayah took me to a private rumah bersalin (special sikit) but you refused to come out. I was induced twice (it was so painful I developed high fever after that) but you still did not come out. 

Then my water bag broke. The doctor said she couldn't hold me there so she decided to ask Ayah to take me to Hospital Kota Bharu. 

I was whisked into the ambulance and within minutes I was already in front of the labour room. 

Here, I got scolded by the doctors and nurses. Nak beranak pun masih pakai T-shirt lagi (mana nak tau nak beranak tak boleh pakai T-shirt kan)... Tu lah, pergi lagi tempat swasta. Last2 kat hospital juga... macam2. Rasa macam nak sepak je semua. Hello, I nak beranak okay... Lepas tu sign forms and everything, I was pushed into the OT. 

On the OT table, I could hear everything the doctors and nurses were discussing. To cut the long story short... tadaaaa!! You were born! 

I developed high fever again immediately after the operation. It was 40 degree Celcius. 

I guess I lost my mind for a while. I could not remember what happened, where I was, and I asked nenek when did I change my baju. 

Nenek nangis je and suruh ibu mengucap. So ibu cakap dengan nenek if anything happened, please take care of you (cakap Kelantan lah bukan cakap omputeh). 

We have decided on your name for quite sometime. Noorfaqihah is a beautiful name and Qihah would be the name we wanted call you. 

Now, you are already 19 years old. Soon, the teenage years will leave you.  

You must know that life is not always a bed of roses. Along the way, there are trials, tribulations and sacrifices to be made. 

Along the way, you will find love. But always remember, love is something sacred that it should not be given to any ordinary man. Someday, you will find the right one insyaAllah.  

But above all of these, don't forget Allah, read the Quran and make Quran your companion. Always remember to turn to Him when you have problems  and also when you don't have any.  

Ibu and Ayah will not be with you forever. But rest assured that whatever choices you make, whichever path you take and whatever your decision is- we will always support you. 

Thank you for being a kind, wonderful and the best daughter anyone could ever asked for.  

Thank you for being someone who always sees and feels that Allah is watching. 

Last but not least, ibu & ayah doakan kejayaan & kesejahteraan hidup kakak sepanjang hayat. 

Jadilah anak yang solehah dan sentiasa doakan ibu & ayah. Semoga Allah akan temukan kita semua di Jannah insyaAllah. 

Luv,-IBU-5/6/2015.

Freaked out few days ago because I thought I lost this book- the birthday present Ibu gave me last year. I reckon posting it here would be safe (just in case the book went missing again *cries*)

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624; Biggest Birthday Present

Bismillah.

It was my birthday few weeks ago. This year I was hoping to get my biggest birthday present. Something that I wouldn't forget.

I started planning for this day a few days before the big day. Bought presents for ibu & ayah and all the preparations for the day. 

On that particular day (my birthday), since early in the morning I started to make blueberry cupcakes & fruit cocktail. Cik Lah helped with cooking nasi ayam for dinner. I myself made all the balloon decorations. Inflated all the balloons myself (not to mention few balloons popped *cries).

To make things short, that night everyone was happy. 

So that is how I got my biggest birthday present ever. The end.

#506; Birthday Cockroach

Bismillah.

Today is my birthday and a cockroach gave me a surprise party in my dinner plate. Yeayyy!!

My Birthday Facts 2011

BIG thanks to those people:)

1st family wish

Adik

1st bagi mesz

Noreen Eryannie

1st wish

Noreen Eryannie

1st fb wish

Noreen Eryannie

1st SMS wish

 Norsyafeza Norazham

2nd SMS wish
Qistina Syasya

Team mate pertama wish

Qistina Syasya

Team mate kedua wish

Kak Wardah 

1st bagi hadiah 

Cik Lah (cushion blanket)

2nd bagi hadiah

Cik Yah (coklat)

1st blog wish (comment)

Nurin Nabila

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1st Blog Wish
Ain Amira

Jamuan Birthday

Malam semalam aku ngan family gi Jusco Bukit Indah. Kitorang nak gi makan bersempena birthday aku. Although a bit late, tidak mengapalaa..

Mula- mula nak makan kat Black Canyon. Pikir- pikir, makan kat secret recipe laa. Bagus gak, senang aku nak dapat first cake aku tu.. (wakaka, lama gila tunggu nak dapat kek)

Aku order chocolate ice blended ngan black pepper chicken. Hmm, boleh tahan.

Happy Belated Birthday to Me+Pranks Dormates

Happy belated birthday to me!!(030696)

Actually, kalau boleh nak tulis kat blog semalam. Tapi masa dan tempat tak mengizinkan, so tergendala impian tu. Anyway, for ur information, ini first time aku sambut bithday kat sekolah. Haha, at least dapat jugak merasa pengalaman tu.

Ramai gila wish birthday kat aku. Sampai ada kelas lain yang bawak rombongan datang kelas aku..Thank you!

"Happy Becoming Birthday!"

"Happy Birthday!"

"Happy Belated Birthday!"

"Selamat Hari Tua!"

"Selamat Ulangtahun!"

Semua jenis wishes aku dapat. kuikui..

To dormates, thx sbb buatkan aku kek biskut milo!! Sedap.. Yuummm...

Haha, Qis+dormates aku cuba nak wat prank kat aku! Congrats, menjadi apa yang korang buat tu..

Tak pasal2 malam semalam f1 and f2 kena panggil pergi depan sebab ada yang disyaki curi MP3 kak Wida. Siapa lagi yang disyaki kalau bukan aku? Actually aku dah agak dah korang nak kenakan aku.. Aku nak senyum tapi cover2 je..

Tapi masa tu 3 haribulan and dah nak pukul 12. Aku pon terpikir, pehallah diorang nak prank aku at 4 haribulan pulak. By the time tu, aku dah macam was- was dengan kak Lisa yang marah aku tu. Betul ke mp3 tu jumpa dalam loker aku? Dahlah muka dia ketat semacam. Time dia kata 1,2,3 tu, aku dah agak semua ni main2 je. Pastu dormate pun nyanyi lagu birthday untuk aku. Dahlah kuat. Tak pasal- pasal kena marah dengan warden..

Actually aku lupa gila yang jam kat dorm aku tu cepat 5 minit. So, maknanya belum 4hb lagi laa..

Nasib baik arh korang tak kurung aku dalam laundry dengan kucing, tak simbah aku dengan air, tak tidurkan aku dengan kucing and tak takutkan aku dengan hantu telekung macam yang korang plan tu.. Naya aku weyh kalo korang buat macam tu..

Cerita pasal hari ni pulak..
Yay, aku dapat surprise jam baru! Sama macam Wan and Alya Razak punya.. Tapi aku punya warna purple! Thx family!!

p/s: Dormates, korang boleh jadi pelakon terhebat. Tahniah!!
p/s: Sampai sekarang aku tak merasa makan kek betul lagi ni.. Hai, kempunan laa..